I have been looking for a job for a long time. For 3 years, I’ve felt I badly needed one. In January while on a weekend retreat, I was given the opportunity to be prayed over by an anointed team of two men and as they prayed I noticed that the word job was quickly replaced in their prayer with the word provision. I knew this was significant. It was not a word I typically used in conversation, and certainly not one I used in prayer to that point. It sounded good, but honestly it’s true meaning at that time was somewhat vague. I need food, I need to keep a roof over my head, I need to take care of my physical needs, my loved ones . . . I need . . . I want . . . and they were praying for provision. Hmmm . . .
I used to have a good job. It provided for me in ways that satisfied me. It didn’t make me rich, but it kept me from laying awake at night. It didn’t bless me especially, but it was okay. It was sensible and safe and I was often happy. I never prayed for provision. I had it “under control.” In the words of Joshua 9:14 “The Israelites sampled their provisions but did not inquire of the LORD.” I didn’t inquire of the Lord either. He had more for me, but I didn’t ask. I was “handling it” okay. We settle for okay a lot, don’t we? When I relocated 1000 miles from all that was familiar, I realized a dream in doing so, but didn’t find a job. Still haven’t. However, I’ve found “work” and it’s another dream come true. It does not seem to come with a paycheck, yet it blesses me in ways no paycheck ever could. Still I wonder . . . and so I read Psalm 132:15 “I will bless her with abundant provisions; her poor I will satisfy with food.” There’s that word again and it comes with a promise . . . I need to trust Him for my provision.
Provision? The dictionary defines it as “supplying something, especially food or other necessities.” No mention of money . . . but I’m certain it falls somewhere on the list of “other necessities.” The Lord is showing me that my needs are being met and will continue to be for He knows what they are far better than I do and exceeds my limited expectations in His abundance. I am finally learning that provision is about far greater things than money and that for me, as also shown in the dictionary definition, the word money doesn’t really have the importance I thought it would. I have come to know that the Lord’s provision and His amazing love is more than enough “for I know that through your prayers and God’s provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance.” Philippians 1:19. Amen. Come, Holy Spirit!