My life is in season change mode. I’ve had a long season of growth, testing, learning, and waiting time. In this time there’s been much opportunity to properly define trust . . . that knowing the Lord is here and has the best in His plan for me even when in human sight, all seems so bleak and uncertain.
That being said, as my relationship with Him has grown, I have also been learning what hope means. It is vital that I know hope as well as trust. They are life-giving and have subtle differences in meaning. The dictionary reveals “A person or thing in which expectations are centered.” It is defined well in the Hebrew word qavah which develops the concept of hope very well for the knowledge of our hope in the Lord. For qavah, the word for hope, is defined as “to wait, to look for, to expect.” Hebrew lexicons I’ve consulted go further to say that it is to “wait or look eagerly for.”
It seems to me that in the past I’ve used the word hope somewhat sarcastically, saying things like “sure, you go on hoping” or “ya, I hope so” with a smirk that betrays my true feelings of “it’s hopeless.”
As I write this, I’m wishing the phone would ring, and that someone dear to me would find time for me. I’m seeing joy reflected in others and wondering “what’s next” for me. I know the weather can so quickly go from dark and rainy to bright and sunny. In the last few days, in fact, our cold winter has teased us with several days of summer temperatures.
So, my feelings . . . those unruly deceptors . . . challenge my heart and soul, but what my heart and soul knows is the truth. The truth is that my hope is in the Lord. As I approach a corner . . . a place where my path and my season in the Lord and with the Lord present new opportunities to serve, to grow still closer to Him, and to reflect His glory . . . I hope! I listen! I pray! I seek! I wait eagerly!